I had once heard that when you share your testimony, you are forgiven of your sins. To me it has been really hard to forgive myself for my sins. But over the last few days, I have come to realize that what is past is past. And I need to move on in my life. I remember a flair on face book before I got off, it said, “You don’t know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have.” I am now coming to a state of mind where I need to be in control of my life. I don’t want anyone else in charge of my life.
I have decided to become the man that the Lord wants me to be. This involves me giving more of myself to Him. I haven’t been the best example of being a disciple. But that is why I am making choices to ‘become’ a disciple. It takes time, and effort. And, yes, I know that effort is hard. But it is so worth it. The joy that comes from the spirit is so wonderful. I have felt it as I have gone to the temple of the Lord. He is so wonderful and compassionate to be willing to share his Spirit with me.
I have been thinking about what it means to give your all. Recently I have been training for the Ragnarok Race, (sorry about spelling) it is 188 miles split up between twelve runners. My uncle invited me to start training for it because a couple of men in his team might not be running in it due to injuries. So I have started training. It is hard but I am getting where I can run farther and farther every day. I think that this is a way of showing the Lord that I am willing to submit to his will. I have decided, before I run every day, I am going to read my scriptures for half an hour to get the Lord on my side.
And not just read the scriptures, but study and ponder what they mean and how they can apply to me today. When I take the time to do this I feel an added measure of the spirit. I saw a quote by President Abraham Lincoln, “when I do good, I feel good. When I don’t do good, I don’t feel good.” This is simply a saying how you feel with each choice you make. We all have a conscience (light of Christ) within us, so we know what is good and what is bad. When we choose for follow that light for good, we feel good. It is that simple. :D
I know that Jesus is the Christ, He suffered for our sins and our sufferings. It is hard to imagine what it would be like to take on the sins of the world. Only Christ could have done it. I think of how many challenges have been hard for me. And Christ suffered them all and more. His Atonement is infinite, and it is available to us, so let us take advantage of what he has given us. I Love the feeling of the Spirit in my life. I Love my Father in Heaven, He is so kind and Loving to everyone, and I hope to be like him someday.
May the Good Lord bless and keep you.
